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I've been toying with the idea...

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Friday, July 11th, 2008 | 01:16 am

...of writing here again. Part of me is hesitant because I fear I want to write here again because I may be procrastinating and thus am distracting myself from my master's thesis. Another part of me wants to record my life, what I've done today, what I thought, what I said to people, what memorable messages I've received. I've been keeping a diary, jotting things down in my red Moleskine journal. But typing is much more convenient.

The things I want to write and remember are basically the same things that I've been writing down before. Here, on this forum. I've contemplated writing things down in a Word document, but I strangely feel like I want to put it out in the open, perhaps because I'm curious of what other people think of matters I am dealing with. Plus, this looks prettier than some Word document in Times New Roman, 12pt.

I think I could label myself as a pseudo-writer (I know I'm a mere blogger, but I just don't like the word 'blog'). I started writing in Singapore, when I was in boarding school. I had one at Xanga, that awful blogging website. At that time you needed an invite to have your own account at LiveJournal. All the AsianAvenue 'celebrities' moved from AA to LiveJournal. Which brings back memories, because I remember having an AA account when I was 14 years old. It was mostly catered for Asian Americans, but I enjoyed reading articles on that website. Anyway, I wrote very often during my three years in England in college. And then in Bulgaria. It was fun writing about my life in Bulgaria because it was so damn exciting. I moved there for an internship, and no one knew where I lived, what my apartment looked like, what I was doing every day, so it was nice to write about my experiences so that my friends and family could read what I was doing there.

And then I came back home. And I stopped writing. Did I run out of things to say? Or was I not doing as many exciting things as I used to? One thing that comes to mind is that I only really wrote when I was abroad. As if I only wanted to tell exciting stories from the new countries that I was discovering at the time. Although I have to admit I didn't do as much exploring in England as I should have. I still haven't been to Glastonbury, nor have I been to Wimbledon, or Liverpool, Manchester or any of the other larger cities in England other than London and Birmingham.

I'm guessing the so-called writer's bug that I had when I was in Singapore, England and Bulgaria was gone. I especially remember whining and bitching about life, love and boys when I was in England. Those posts must be awful to read now. I'm actually smiling at the thought of reading my old posts about the failed relationships or non-relationships that I had with Rick, Jack and Steffen. (NB: This is probably the first time I mention people by their full first names. I always used initials. I guess this means I don't really care about privacy anymore, although you won't be seeing any pictures of myself here.)

I think I may start writing here again. Maybe that has to do with the fact that I'm moving to Brussels to live and work there for five months come October. Somehow I landed a traineeship at the European Commission with DG EuropeAid. I'm very excited to gain work experience in the heart of the European Union. I really enjoyed writing and posting stories here about my experiences in Bulgaria. And I want to continue that. And not just when I'm abroad.

Ok, time for me to take an inventory of my closet. I am missing a pair of jeans that I bought in the fall last year, and I can't seem to remember where they are. Nor do I remember when I saw or wore them. Plus, I need to see whether I have enough shabby-ish summer clothes to bring for my one month long backpacking trip with the boyfriend through Eastern Turkey, Georgia, Armenia, Azerbaijan and Iran. I know I have to buy some large kaftan-like things to cover up in Iran, and long maxi skirts. Or I could just get them there. Clothes shopping in Tehran, how fashionable can that be?






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Just A Boy

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from: badlywritten
date: Friday, July 11th, 2008 12:00 am (UTC)
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the best part of my writing in a blog is that i can look back and see how silly i was in my previous life or even in a more narcisstic way, my kids maybe? HAHAHA

but you know what i mean

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euphrosynely

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from: euphrosynely
date: Friday, July 11th, 2008 12:01 am (UTC)
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Yeah I know what you mean. I haven't read my old entries yet. Now is not the good time either, it's 2am.

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Just A Boy

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from: badlywritten
date: Friday, July 11th, 2008 12:06 am (UTC)
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lol, it's 10am and i just got into work
timezones still make me smile

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おにぎりまん

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from: onigiriman
date: Friday, July 11th, 2008 09:37 am (UTC)
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I've learned that writing is therapeutic, as I've started writing again recently too, on the site you seem to dislike, Xanga. The point of blogging, ultimately, is to allow others into your world, no? Otherwise you'd be satisfied with writing in that Word document in Times New Roman 12 pt... speaking of which, with my eye sight, that sounds better than the 8 pt Arial you use not. It looks cool, but only to young eyes. :-P But I guess that's my problem.

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euphrosynely

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from: euphrosynely
date: Wednesday, July 16th, 2008 08:12 pm (UTC)
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Just changed the font into Arial 10pt :) This looks better indeed.
Writing & therapeutic. I guess that's true. A lot of crap's been posted on this thing about my crappy pseudo-boyfriends, haha. I guess I have less of that now, as I have a lovely boyfriend, but maybe it's a good thing to vent once in a while on this thing instead of other people.

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the cold fusion perpetual motion machine (of love)

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from: nondescriptboy
date: Friday, July 11th, 2008 04:11 pm (UTC)
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doesn't matter if you write here or elsewhere, as long as you write write write. i'm amazed at how much i forget about my life. the things i don't write here, end up lost forever often.

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euphrosynely

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from: euphrosynely
date: Wednesday, July 16th, 2008 08:13 pm (UTC)
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Yeah, I wanna keep on writing, writing, writing. My diary is quite full already, and typing is so much faster than writing everything down.

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